It’s almost Christmas and , for someone with my status, Christmas (just like every other holiday or every other weekend or every other day) should be a fun ,pleasant time. Sadly, for this 22 yro, having a seemingly *easy* life ,not having to work yet,having enough to lead a materially satisfying life , didn’t equal happiness.
Today,the 23rd of December I am 22 years 6 months and 1 day old and I feel like a failure who just can’t manage to get a grip,put laziness aside,put dreams aside also and start building a future. I’m just a 22yro who couldn’t even complete the diploma paper in time and might not finish it now either just cause I’m sad and that makes it even harder to force myself to do what is necessary .

Have you ever dreamed of the perfect Christmas/b-day/day ? I would make a poll but I bet no one’s gonna’ read this stupid rant anyway.
Well, I have. I’m not the kind of “romantic” or “dreamer” who likes to read romance novels and love stories or watch silly movies about that and I don’t want candle lit dinners and dozens of roses or anything corny like that . Still, I am a dreamer and a romantic . I spend most of my day dreaming of the perfect day,of the perfect place,a perfect life,a perfect version of myself, a perfect relationship,etc. By perfect I don’t actually mean flawless (I don’t think there’s such a thing when talking of anything human related or human made )and I would not like perfection even if I saw it so ,what I mean by perfect is just something that would make me happy,that would make me say “yes,this is exactly where/who/what/with whom I want to be.

So,yes, I dreamed all my life of a perfect Christmas. Now,I consider myself an adult with some maturity , I have a certain gravity but I also have and will forever have, a kid inside of me and that kid still wants shiny stuff,to run around in the snow,play games or,in this case, have a perfect Christmas.
My Christmases have generally been better than most people’s . I realize that most people live in poverty,they can barely sustain themselves and their families,etc so I was lucky to have a nice ,safe roof over my head, a Christmas tree and presents but that’s not it. I love presents in any shape or form and at any time but the perfect Christmas for me means more than that. The Perfect Christmas would be a white Christmas somewhere in a beautiful city,preferably a small village/resort in the mountains,somewhere with an atmosphere,in a cabin or cozy house all decorated(with taste),a fireplace,a big tree and time spent in those places with my mother,maybe one or two close friends + that special someone. Something like that, I never had. We had enough money to go to such a place but since we were never such a close knit family ,we never did that.

The worst Christmas was in 2001 when my dad died on the 26th of December and we were expecting it any day so that was Christmas. I don’t even remember if I got a present then, I might have,not sure and I don’t remember if we put up a tree,probably not.
Best Christmas was in 2005 when I convinced my mom to go to Vienna for Christmas. Then I experienced a city with a proper atmosphere,we were basically travelling and that’s a bit passion of mine, we were away from our pretty but rather lonely home, my Vatican hobby was pleasantly tickled by getting to meet one of the well known Cardinals and he was incredibly nice so it was a great moment and it even snowed in the last couple of days.
The usual Christmas is spent just like another regular day but with more food and maybe my grandma comes over,possibly a family friend . The mood is generally not great, mom is always sad cause she also dreamed of the perfect Christmas and never had it, I’m also sad and we pretend it’s all good.
This year Christmas comes while I am going through a rough patch emotionally,everything kinda’ escalated and reached a boiling point this year so the lack of this perfect Christmas, the loneliness,sadness ,lack of self-worth and self-esteem,thinking I’m a loser cause of this diploma shit just makes it worse,they hurt more. This year we don’t even have a tree,there’s absolutely no Christmas decoration whatsoever,hearing Christmas carols in stores or on tv is annoying and painful ,
I’m just sorry because I’m 22, things should be different. I’m not stupid ,I’m not poor, I’m a nice,normal person who could do a lot of good things with her life but I’m stuck and I can’t get up on my own, I also sorta’ don’t want to get up on my own , I want what I want and nothing short of it is gonna’ suffice and this stubborness ,this inability to be strong and pick myself up might ruin what could have been the chance at a good life, could waste all the opportunities life threw my way and it’s a shame and I feel extremely sorry and ashamed and scared of it all being taken away cause I don’t deserve it .

I’ve been told it’s in my nature to be unhappy,perhaps cause I have gotten used to it in a way or something like that, not sure.
Right now ,if my dreams,if my emotional issues and needs can’t be taken care of ,I almost wish to become totally cynical,cold,to just not give a crap about anything but money,career,buying stuff,visiting places,watching tv shows.

You can’t always get what you want and sometimes you can’t even get what you need.

If you read all this rant then you have all my admiration and respect(for what it’s worth),thank you !

Merry Christmas, have fun, stay healthy and joyful !

I’m here to bring you yet another whiny abstract post ! I think this blog should be called “Ada’s House of Whining” (yeah,inspired by the famous line from back in the 3rd season of House when the show was still smart and not a pathetic soap opera) but to tell you the truth , I don’t give a damn about what you all think and it’s not cause I’m an arrogant bitch,which I am not(it would be oh so good though), but because the beauty of written rants is that they don’t have to disturb anyone since no one is forcing anyone to read ,any written text in this world can be ignored unless it’s on a 30 m large banner or something similar to that.

I just want to be happy , I mean really happy, satisfied, warm on the inside, not alone ,miserable ,unloved and lost but what I want I can never get and I am worried I will lose my mind very soon , I don’t deserve to be this emotionally unhappy when I could have such a good life and a good time but I CANNOT FUCKING HAVE WHAT I FUCKING NEED FOR FUCKS SAKE cause I’m just a silly little piece of worthless shit !

As anyone who gives a damn about this humble,insignificant blogger and actually reads the posts I make knows , I am or at least feel depressed which in fact comes from feeling emotionally unhappy . Yeah, I know and I’ve admitted it before, I have a pretty good life in terms of financial security ,responsibilities (or lack thereof) and possible opportunities in this God forsaken country so I’m not saying I’m unlucky , I’m only saying I’m unlucky when it comes to emotional fulfillment of most types that don’t have anything to do with the forever existing joy of receiving anything for free in any sort of gift,material form. I am probably overreacting but I really got to the conclusion (a sad conclusion to get to when you’re 22 and everything looks ok from the outside) that I will never really be emotionally happy or get what I need.

See,for all my strengths in all sorts of areas, I am emotionally weak, small things affect me greatly even without me noticing it and I’m plagued by insecurities,stupid insecurities, lack of self-esteem and a tendency to be very introspective to the point of obsession . I also over-think, overreact, over-analyze, I’m extremely passionate and I used to be a dreamer although not in a naive way .

Lately I’ve been losing myself, losing control of my emotional state and have discovered that things that seem and probably are small compared to what others have to go through during their childhood, affected me and the way I see the world and myself. I a lost the ability to hope for anything good when it comes to my emotional fulfillment , the only hopes I still have are to have a healthy,long life and somewhat financially secure which is important seeing as most people in the world live below the poverty line but just not sufficient for me and I don’t think it’s something selfish of me because I didn’t steal or take food from anyone’s mouth and I’m not some millionaire. I am one of those people who have a very intense emotional existence, for whom that side is very important and I’ve never felt really fulfilled or even loved apart from maternal love. Now I feel alone, unhappy , unloved ,unimportant, insignificant , pathetic and hopeless . What I want ,what I desperately need in this life and right now I clearly can’t get and I can’t do anything about it ,it’s just how I am and where I am . It is very hard to handle this pain so I let it consume me and it will only get worse but it doesn’t matter because I don’t matter or don’t deserve such happiness or both. I am smart but I feel stupid, I am a normal looking person but I feel disgusting , I could make a good life for myself but I’m wasting everything including my days by existing instead of living .

Now to clarify : NO,no, don’t think of anything very dramatic in my childhood, I wasn’t abused or seen anyone being abused but we weren’t exactly the perfect family in the sense that my dad left home when I was an infant and until the age of 7 he only came to visit once every couple of evenings and spent one day from morning to afternoon with me during the weekend . Then ,at age 7 , he and mom decided to buy a bigger apartment together so I could grow with both parents in the same house but they weren’t acting like husband and wife or anything,weren’t fighting but I slept with mom and dad slept in what was my room during the day , he wasn’t home until in the evening cause he worked so I guess I have some feelings of neglect although I am not conscious of them. He died on the 26th of December 2001 and the worst thing I remained with from that was the slight hypochondria,a terrible fear of illnesses ,diseases . Of course my mom was never a particularly happy woman. Don’t get me wrong, she’s fun, she’s terribly kind and selfless but she is unhappy, she didn’t start over and that’s probably cause she was too busy taking care of me and cause she doesn’t exactly trust people. She’s also very realistic and she likes to help by pointing out every error and flaw so you can fix it.

There, I ranted ,if anyone reads this…..well,you’re very patient and kind, I’m sorry for wasting your time

THANK GOD FOR HEROES !!!!!!! I LOVE YOU TIM KRING and I always will no matter how much you might ruin the next season or something. I love that Tim is doing his thing while also listening to the fans,to what and who they are attached and what they think is nice and logical because ,after all,if no one likes your show then your ideas have no value anyways.

The newest Heroes episode was so cool and it actually used logic and managed to beautifully complete some of the scenes in Season 1 and show us a story behind them.Also,they managed to nicely explain Sylars condition,how he is,why he’s doing what he’s doing without turning him into more of a villain or turning him into an angel,he’s in a grey area .The most important part was : OMG HRG just became more awesome and I loved his interaction with Elle.He’s so funny and awesome and badass and morally grey and adorable and hot. Let’s not forget Ma’ Petrelli’s awesomeness either.

Yeah,so this week House continued to screw me over(or should I say Katie Jacobs?).I said I won’t watch after the Huddy kiss and the previous 13 episode (WTF,how can 13,a new character,get an episode centered on her?)but  I said I’ll give episode 7 a chance because it promised a lot of Cameron,some Chase,some old dynamic and fun. The dynamic was there,Cameron actually had cool scenes with House that only prove how,even when they’re surely not supposed to,they have serious chemistry and tension (that no one sees anymore and only the Huddy has now..WTFFFFFFF).This episode also showed how Cameron is in fact able to stand House and how she’s able to equally banter with him and have fun like that,how she doesn’t take his bullshit while Cuddy is pretty much his whore(yeah,sorry Cuddy fans,you’re bashing,I’m bashing and Cuddy is a sad character for all women out there).

But this episode was all about the Huddy,this shit is getting more important than the actual medical mystery of the week ,that has never happened,it’s so stupid,even in Three Stories when they told House’s infarctions story it was all shown through the case,the case took front stage ,it was the whole concept of the show but now it’s becoming a sort of wannabe’ intelligent soap opera thing.

Now I’ve completely given up on it ,I have no hopes and expectations from it. In fact I’m expecting House to declare his undying love for Cuddy ,rub her boobs(as one particular spoiler claims)and then give her beautiful children .Then,they both run off into the sunset and leave 13 in charge while Taub is still invisible,Kutner is still somehow there ,Wilson falls for nurse Brenda and Foreman asks 13 to marry him in Vegas where they’ll have a double wedding because Chase and Cameron will suddenly decide they want to get married as well. Oh and while this stuff happen patients die and no one gives a fuck anymore.

Everyone in the media(well,95% of them) is all for the Huddy and they treat everyone who doesn’t agree with it like we’re either morons,stupid or just plain old mean and unimportant.

I’m sorry for Hugh because I love the guy,he’s wonderful but I can no longer take this.

Come on Huddies,I’m waiting for your lovely comments,u can’t ban me from my own blog and I will respond,be sure of that. Maybe u should just stick to the Fox Boards from where u banned several people and no one gave a crap…….you’re pathetic.

Now I’ll go watch Fringe and the one episode of Supernatural I’m yet to see then tomorrow I watch 30 Rock because Tina Fey is awesome and doesn’t screw people over.

I hope my Band From Tv CD/DVD arrives soon ’cause I can’t wait for it

Oh and since I’m bitching : I HATE UNIVERSITY,HATE IT

While I’ll keep posting everything I find related to House(everything I find and am not too lazy to post of course ),I won’t be watching the next 2 episodes as I didn’t watch episode 3 either because I hate where the show is going in terms of characters and I feel insulted by this (it’s my personal opinion so there’s no reason to throw shit at me for having an opinion). Now,I like the humor ,I love the cases(I even like the ones in Season 4 even when many had problems with it)and this show is,for me,not all about the House/Cameron the House/Wilson interaction or anything like that BUT I do feel that,for a loyal viewer(and by the way,those are the ones that bring u the money DS !) who sees things the way I do(and just because the Huddy people have taken over the official forum by bullying everyone out and virtually screaming at every little non-existent thing like a 12 year old girl doesn’t mean that most people are into this thing) characters are important and this change ,while totally understandable ,was made in a slightly wrong way.

I mean,for example,I’ll be the first one to admit that I personally don’t hate 13’s character as so many do(and I understand them perfectly).I think that ,if the writers manage to turn her into a unique character instead of,as it was in season 4,turning her into a Cameron clone ,she can be quite interesting to watch BUT I will never ,ever,ever prefer having her over having Cameron ,I can never,no matter how opened I am, care more about 13 or Kutner or Taub(who is kinda’ invisible anyway) over Cameron or Chase and even Foreman (who I never really liked). The show House MD is successful because of the lead character and Hugh’s performance,because of the writing,the intelligence,the drama,the humor but also because of the 3 original ducklings and Wilson so taking one factor out of the equation ,especially one that can’t emotionally be replaced after so much time,may and did cause a drop in ratings and overall quality because,again,no matter how good the show is in the end people always look for something that can emotionally draw them to it (as it happens in all aspects of life) and the characters represent that.

I am finding myself(as many others ,I’m sure) in a position where I have this great show in terms of acting,plot,etc and that I really want to watch but that I end up not watching because the characters involved in telling the exciting medical stories,the jokes and so on are being messed up ,replaced and made to feel and think in ways that I personally find illogical. Sure,I’m not a writer and no one gives crap on what I think should or shouldn’t happen.Hell,I don’t even live in the US so I  don’t contribute to the ratings in any way but I am a fan,one of those who supports the show in my community and online,who recommends this show to others not only from my country but others too,one of those who buys the DVD’s ,watches the promo’s ,discusses the show and makes this show popular because in the end the fan base can turn the show into a legend or some forgettable piece of art(ex : Gossip Girl – bad ratings in first season but with a growing ,loyal and implicated fan base which made it popular and drew attention to it so this second season I’m hearing the ratings are going up)

Now episode 5 is coming and it’s annoying me to see that ,in half a season,we’ll probably get to know more about 13 ,a new character that most don’t even like, than we learned about Cameron or Chase (2 very popular characters) in 4 seasons while the original ,loved characters have 1 minute of screentime every 2 episodes.This makes me feel insulted by the writers and by DS and KJ especially after that one interview when DS said something along the lines of ” the fans think they want something but it’s not really what they do want” to which I say “Oh really? How’d u get to that brilliant conclusion ? Are u God?).

Then in episode 6 we’ll get the peak of the Huddy problem which I find totally illogical and stupid. I mean,come on, even my mother thinks it’s stupid and she’s no shipper but a great fan of the show,she likes everyone the same(well,she mostly only cares about House ).Even my mother thinks House and Cuddy (Hugh and Lisa in fact) have no romantic/sexual chemistry and she sees them more like she sees House and Wilson,as friends. What’s even more annoying is that I think it’s illogical to fall in love with someone after 20+ years of not being in love with them and after u had your chance but neither wanted it and House actually fell hard for Stacy.But the most annoying thing is that everyone treats it like there’s been this tension,this subtext ,this dancing around ever since the beginning when that’s not true,House and Cuddy and Wilson were 3 old friends who also had a professional relationship,Cuddy wasn’t even that involved in the first 2 seasons,Cuddy even supported the idea of House opening up to Cameron (remember the Love Hurts episode when she actually tried to help him not screw it up?).And now? now they’re showing this down our throats and treating the beautiful ,subtle connection and attraction between House and Cameron(and the amazing natural chemistry that Hugh and Jennifer have) like it never existed .Also,this ruined Cuddy as a character,it’s like she has no other purpose than being the other half in the Huddy and House’s sexual harassment object. Since I also find this as insulting to me and I’ve come to hate Cuddy ,hate LE,hate KJ and DS because of it when I used to like all of them,I will not watch that episode too.

I’ll watch episode 7 because it has Cameron and Chase(whose relationship is stupid too because Cameron can’t fall in love with Chase just cause she’s sleeping with him after it was made clear in past seasons that she’d never fall for him + as much as I actually thought they were a cute couple in real life,on screen JMo and JS have no chemistry) in it and because it has scenes where House and Cameron are actually in the same room talking but I don’t know what will happen afterward.

Ok,I know this annoyed and bored many (well,the 1 or 2 people who actually read all my rant)and I do realize this is just a show but when I invest something in a hobby or in anything I expect to at least be respected and I feel I am not so it really,really bothers me.

Now on to the Joy promo pics (too bad I’m not going to be able to watch it,Hugh looks really ,very hot in it)

While the House/Hugh Laurie posts have completely taken over my PERSONAL blog(can u believe it,it is supposed to be a random blog about random things and yet it became a source of info on ,mostly,all things House/Hugh…….I am very ,very obsessed ) Heroes is still my favorite show(it’s a tie between it and House but House’s writers are trying hard to make things easier for me when it comes to deciding by not giving Cameron enough screentime,fucking Cuddy up and pretending that House and Cameron have no chemistry).

Now,we all know(or should know because everyone should be informed of my obsessions) that I have an (un)healthy obsession for the one and only Noah Bennet aka HRG aka the king of badass who can rule the world by just staring at you through his badass horn rimmed glasses.He’s like the coolest character on tv ever(ok,after House)and he even makes Hayden Pannetiere barable to watch(she’s a great actress ,I just don’t like her much)and even cute and adorable in their scenes(hugs,we need more hugs…).

And now,because the Heroes writers are awesome and like to listen to the fans while still doing their own thing(hear that David Shore? ’cause your ratings aren’t as hot as they used to be,I wonder why)we get the most awesome team up on planet Earth : HRG + Sylar(aka the sexy brain loving lunatic who everyone ,including me,loves and loves to hate aka second coolest character on that show together with Ma’ Petrelli).

Look at all the coolness

Since I was away I just managed to see episode 3 the day before yesterday and I swear I giggled and pointed and laughed and jumped happilly all over the place during all the HRG + Sylar scenes,it was amazing,magnificent and badass.BTW,weren’t Hiro and Ando idiots in this one? I mean,Hiro ,for once,is actually not saving the world,he’s threatening it(but I did love the end of that scene where the Hatian recovers and takes Hiro and Ando by surprise and Hiro goes all “popcorn?”).Oh and Nathan + God + Bible = HAHAHA and Matt’s life still sucks.

My love for football knows no bounds and just when I was all sad about the EURO 2008 being over (aka no more fun games to watch for a while) I hear my favorite coach is back.

I’m not Italian(although very ,very latin in origins because ,yes,Romania is a latin,very latin country not russian or slavic of any kind and certainly not gypsy)and I don’t have such a big love for italians anymore because of recent events that showed how mean and close-minded some of them can be BUT I do love Italian football and their national team’s football(Euro 2008 not included)so having Lippi back as their coach made me a very happy camper because Lippi is THE man and I never really liked that other guy ,Donadoni.Now Italy can start playing some real football again and Lippi can smoke his victory cigar in South Africa in 2010.

Here’s an article about Lippi coming back to the national team.My favorite coach is back,my favorite coach is back ……..yeeey and he can start making fun,being all ironic,sarcastic and somewhat mean to the press….yeeey!!!

by Andrew Dampf, THE ASSOCIATED PRESS

ROME – A refreshed Marcello Lippi was presented as Italy’s coach again Tuesday, less than two years after guiding the Azzurri to the World Cup title.

Lippi’s most immediate task is to restore Italy’s pride after the squad was eliminated by eventual champion Spain in the European Championship quarter-finals.

“Naturally, I’m very happy to pick up where I left off. But picking up where I left off also means that the Euros didn’t go so great, or I would still be on the beach in Viareggio,” the well-tanned Lippi said, referring to his hometown on the Tuscan seaside.

“We’re still the World Cup champions, we’ve got the team that won the Club World Cup (AC Milan), we have a top under-23 squad and we are one of the favourites for the Olympics,” Lippi added. “The world of Italian football should hold its head high.”

Roberto Donadoni’s contract was terminated last week, and Lippi was rehired a few hours later and given a two-year contract that will last through the 2010 World Cup in South Africa.

“These last two years were not completely lost,” Lippi said. “A large number of players from the World Cup stayed in the group, and Donadoni inserted some key new players.”

However, Donadoni was criticized for designing an attack that was overly dependent on an out-of-form Luca Toni at Euro 2008. No forward scored during Italy’s four-game run, and Donadoni was also attacked for playing too defensively against Spain, which won a penalty shootout following a dull 0-0 draw.

“We’ve got to show a bit of daring in certain situations, like in the semifinal with Germany, when I put four forwards on,” Lippi said, recalling the 2-0 extra-time win in the World Cup semifinals. “We’re going to try and show some aggressive football right away.”

Lippi resigned immediately after leading Italy to its fourth World Cup title in Berlin, largely because he was uncomfortable that he and his son had been linked to the Italian match-fixing scandal.

“I would never have left if it wasn’t in the middle of that situation,” Lippi said. “It was very tough to see my name and family members linked to those things. At that time, it wasn’t possible to continue. Now the situation is different, the discussion is open and we’ve gotten through that period.”

Rejecting numerous job offers, Lippi spent the past two years travelling Italy and abroad to pick up awards. He also worked as an analyst for Italy’s Sky TV.

“I received many offers, from many different countries, including for several national teams. But you can’t coach your own country to a World Cup title and then go coach another country a year later,” he said. “There were some very interesting proposals, but at a certain point, when the Euros approached, I felt a strong desire to return. … I felt in debt to the federation in some manner and this is my way to repay that debt.”

In 29 games as Italy’s coach between 2004 and 2006, Lippi guided the Azzurri to 17 wins, 10 draws and two losses.

Lippi rejected the idea of trying to convince Francesco Totti and Alessandro Nesta to come out of international retirement.

“You’ve got to respect people’s opinions, especially people as serious as those two,” Lippi said.

He added that he would suggest to players considering international retirement in the future to take a sabbatical instead, and leave open the option of returning if the team desperately needs them.

Besides the World Cup title, Lippi’s resume includes five Serie A titles with Juventus, one Champions League victory, one Intercontinental Cup title, one Italian Cup and four Italian Super Cups.

Lippi’s first game back in charge will be a friendly against Austria in Nice, France, on Aug. 20.

The Azzurri begin World Cup qualifying against Cyprus on Sept. 6, then face Georgia four days later. Bulgaria, Ireland and Montenegro are also in Italy’s qualifying group.

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I’m a fan of the Indiana Jones series and couldn’t miss the chance to get my dose of the totally unrealistic ,highly inaccurate(I guess),somewhat childish adventures of good old Indy and his hat.So,on a beautiful Friday(23 of May) I skipped my practice hours at the travel agency(yeah,don’t ask)and went to the Mall instead to see if this movie managed to rise up to its fame.

Well,I wasn’t disappointed but I have a feeling that I’d enjoy an Indiana Jones movie even if it were produced by a bunch of retarded people as long as it kept its style and Harrison Ford.The story is ,as the title suggests,about a Crystal Skull .Indy is followed by some crazy russian people(see,the story takes place around the Cold War or something like that,the ’50s)and ,just as he was preparing to leave the country after being slightly fired,this young ,slick dude called Mutt(Shia LaBeouf) finds him and tells him his mother left in search of Prof.Oxley who was captured by some people while he was in South America trying to find and return a mysterious crystal skull.All throughout their journey they’re followed,captured and lost by a mean russian lady (played by the fabulous Cate Blanchett)who is not exactly sane.I won’t say more about the plot because I don’t want to completely ruin the movie for you but it’s all in the usual style,a combination of history and total fiction + 1 WTF moment at the end where u’ll be going like “come on man,that’s way too much even for the Indy movies”.

I must mention I totally dislike Shia LaBeouf but luckily I managed not to think about that too much during the movie .Harrison Ford is great even at 64 and he’s in damn good shape ,Indiana Jones was always one sexy beast (maybe it’s the hat or the whip or just the jacket….don’t know ).

All in all it was a wonderful way for me to spend approx. 2 hrs and I recommend it to all Indiana Jones fans.I hope if there’s a sequel Harrison Ford will star in it because I don’t want Shia L. as the new star.

some promo pics I found just ’cause a post with pictures is a pretty post

The last episode of Season 4 aired in the US Monday night and it was AMAZING again.Isuck at reviews and stuff but I’ll rant about it a little.
Let’s take it in steps to try and make it coherent.

1.The episode as a whole was great,loved it to bits.There was little mystery and the focus was on the characters again but they still managed to keep the medical details in the show which is good ’cause I like strange,interesting,scientific babble.

I liked Amber ,even when she was clearly not such a nice person, for some of the same reasons for which I like T-Bag from Prison Break : she’s interesting,refreshing,fun,funny,witty which makes her a good addition .Also,I liked her with Wilson because she really was a lot like House and Wilson likes House a lot and loves him dearly as a friend so it makes sense that a woman a lot like House ended up being the perfect woman for Wilson.Having said this,I am very sorry she died but it was a rather bold move to kill a character that was becoming important,very important and had a lot of potential.The writers nailed it with this decision because the emotional intensity of this episode sky rocketed without having many dramatic moments.Also this allowed the writers to create a story that revolves around House’s friendship with Wilson and shows exactly how they feel about eachother while at the same time showing the different,caring,hurt side that we all know House has

2.The acting was superb yet again.Sure,Hugh always gets a chance to shine and in this last 2 episodes he SHINED like the sun (yes,I’m that obsessed)but I was very happy that Robert Sean Leonard got his chance to prove what a great actor he is and show his full puppy in distress/adorableness potential.Anne Dudek also did a great job now and throughout the show.

Seriously,between House/Hugh crying/being sad/wounded/in pain and RSL crying/being sad no one stands a chance…..crying like an idiot is guaranteed or,if u’re like me aka not a crier,u’ll be hearing your heart break into small pieces.Hugh has such an expressive face and big expressive blue eyes and the kindness he seems to generally have helps him deliver so much emotion,so much pain and sincerity,he’s the Puss in Boots(from Shrek) of the real world.

When he was on that bus with Amber towards the end and she told him to get off the bus and he said no,that he can’t because it doesn’t hurt in there and he doesn’t want Wilson to hate him and doesn’t want to be miserable anymore ,they were showing his face closely and his big sad eyes and he was tearing up and my heart was slowly but surely dying………. *cries*.

3.What I didn’t like . There were 2 main things I didn’t like about this episode :

a) lack of Cameron because Cameron and Wilson are nr 2 in my book after House(yes,I can’t decide between them)and because House and Cameron are meant for eachother.She should have been there for House as she was for Wilson(why didn’t they make that one a longer scene????)and she should have helped.

b) the Cuddy-holding-House’s-hand part and not the scene itself really because that was ok but the moment in which it was shown and the fact that it was ,the way I see it,out of character for Cuddy(at least the real ,season 1 and season 2 Cuddy,the good Cuddy).That holding his hand thing came around the scene on the bus where House said he doesn’t want to be miserable and lonely anymore so I think it’s possible for the Cuddy scene to be a sort of sign of things to come from the writers. See,they fucked Cuddy up in their attempts to show us some sexual/romantic chemistry between them because I think they realized that they have a friendship vibe but not a sexual vibe so they must “poke” our eyes with the sexual chemistry,they have to make it blunt.It’s really not sexual at all because all they do is have House make fun of Cuddy in a sexual way and have Cuddy behave like a semi-hooker around him sometimes.Cuddy now seems to have no other purpose now that to be sexy around House and be the object of his most unflattering jokes.She no longer has any authority over him,she begged him not to cause her to lose her job 2 episodes ago while she is technically HIS BOSS and shows no depth.It’s a shame,I liked the first/second season Cuddy and her friendship with House but now her character makes me sick. Yeah,I’m a House/Cameron fan (it’s my only ship ever and I watch countless shows and usually hate romance on tv shows) and one of the reasons for which I am a fan is because it’s subtle,because their chemistry/sexual tension is natural and needs no words,a look,a slight touch,them being a little closer to eachother is enough to send sparks in all directions.They can make a medical talk about puke be sexy and full of subtext with a look(and the actors/writers used to talk about that a while ago).No matter how hard they might try to turn Cameron into a Wilson 2.0 for House they’ll never succeed because the tension and subtext is always there even when there’s no intention for it.Also,look,Amber was House 2.0 and was great for Wilson so the same might apply to House.Oh and House never made fun of Cameron in the shallow way he makes fun of Cuddy ,with Cameron it was always about deeper things. Now I’m waiting for season 5 which can’t start soon enough.I’m certain House will mend things with Wilson because they need each others friendship .Also I’m certain House will think of changing a bit,of trying to be happy although he probably won’t lose the walls he built around himself in one season .Well,as long as there’s no Huddy,I’mhappy.

I hope they’ll bring Cameron and Chase back(but not as a couple) because they deserve to be in this show and fans want them back,things aren’t quite the same without them.

I want to say SORRY for I’m certain I have MANY mistakes (grammar mistakes and writing ones) in this post because I wrote it in a hurry while my thoughts regarding the show are in no order,my head’s a mess

Now,after this impossibly long rant here comes the fun part of this post :SCREENCAPS(HD ones because I do things in style ).

U know the drill : pics are thumbnails,press on them (takes u to another thumbnail and u’ll need to press once more)

Deci CLAR,urasc practica !!! Ieri ,in prima zi,ne-am dus noi(vreo 6) + profesorul coordonator la agentia de turism unde profu’ a vorbit jumate’ de ora cu directoarea (timp in care noi am stat la intrare ca prostii)dupa care au venit sa vorbeasca si cu noi .Dupa vreo 5 minute de “vai ce frumos e in turism,bla bla bla” ne-a zis sa venim Marti(adica azi) la ora 9:30 .Total si profund stresati am hotarat sa mergem la narghilea(that was fun).

Astazi de dimineata la 9:15 eram acolo dar am mai asteptat sa se faca 9:30 .La 9:30 am intrat in agentie si tipa de acolo ne-a zis sa asteptam ca n-a venit sefa agentiei(alta decat directoarea).Am plecat la McDonalds sa bem o cafea sau ceai si ne-am intors la 10:00 cand aia tot nu venise si ne-am pus din nou pe asteptat(si pe ras)pana pe la 11:00 cand am mers la directorat (sau ce-o fi ala) care era in alta cladire din apropiere si am mai asteptat si acolo vreo jumatate de ora dupa care a venit o secretara,ne-a facut copii dupa buletin si ne-a dus inapoi la agentie unde sefa,care venise intre timp ,s-a gandit ca ar fi foarte util sa invatam cum sa impartim pliante la lume pe strada deci ne-a dat vreo 1000000000000000 de pliante sa le dam prin zona si asa ne-am petrecut urmatoarele 2 ore in soare,aglomeratie batand drumurile centrului de la Pta Romana la Pta Victoriei si retur apoi ne-a mai dat cateva si ne-a zis sa venim maine la 10:00 ca pt ziua de azi a fost destul.Am luat restul pliantelor,le-am aruncat frumos in mai multe cosuri de gunoi in drum spre Pta Universitatii si am venit frumusel acasa dupa 4 ore de stat in picioare .Total nefolositor,obositor si plictisitor dar ne-am amuzat copios de situatia data.Sa vedem ce tampenii facem maine.

Acum incerc sa-mi iau House de pe net da’ nu merge klumea,I hate my life.