This might be my last post about House (well,at least until the next super idiotic thing happens)

I haven’t watched the 8th episode, Jennifer Morrison’s/Cameron’s last, Teamwork but I watched a few of the scenes, watched the heartbreaking scene between Cameron and House.

I cried today watching that scene, it ruined my day (as pathetic as that sounds).
The only time I cried at a movie/tv show was when I was little,less that 7 I think and I was watching La Piovra(an italian tv show of the 80s-early90s about the fight with the mob)and this character called Corrado Cattani ,was killed in a horrible and brutal way ,gunned down by a wall. I remember that I cried the whole night then not because he was brutally murdered but because I thought that,since he was the title character at that time, the show was over. It was in fact not over but I didn’t know squat about seasons and stuff like that. I will always remembered how I cried about that show, it was the first show that got me hooked and I watched it ,the first 5 or 6 series, a couple of times since then (now my fav character is Tano,the mobster LOL).

Back to House and Cameron’s departure now. Honestly I don’t even know what to say, I am very disappointed, it was one of the reasons I cried. The last scene was good but it marks the end of a story that never began,the end of a character that grew so much,that evolved and shared a special connection to House(even in that last scene we got a glimpse of just how well she knows House). For over 3 seasons, House/Cameron was pretty canon ,the chemistry was always ,until the end,amazing, there were subtle scenes,glances,the eye!sex as we call it,that pull ,the understanding, sexual tension and a beautiful story waiting to happen,nothing forced,something that grew from the first episode of the first season. In the end it (and we ,the fans) got nothing,it got no story,it was a lot like sex without the orgasm ,foreplay that lead to nowhere and jumped straight to the “bye bye,I’m going home”. All it got was the echo,the memory of distant promises from everyone including David Shore and Katie Jacobs, a kiss that was never discussed and that was ,probably on purpose, set in a context that allowed it to mean nothing in the end. Most of all,in the end, all it (and we) got was a farewell scene that had a lot of soul and the confession that came too late,at a point where Cameron faced the new canon House,a House who probably never cared about her,a House who didn’t experience the first 3 seasons. I wish this would have happened in season 3 when he was still the House i loved ,the House who had a connection with her and I wish it would have taken their relationship to the next level in a far less soap-opera-ish way than the Huddy, with far less accent on it, just glimpses,something,anything,even short lived.
All that is left are broken promises, no fulfillment, an empty spot where an amazing character used to be and the disappointment and anger caused by a bunch of producers,writers and executives who decided that only one small group in a fandom is to be taken into consideration even though this is a business and in a business one should take all customers into consideration.

Huddy is stupid, the whole backstory now makes no sense because the first seasons had nothing of that,it’s all forced and it takes away from what the show used to be,the ratings will drop and it will die but I don’t care,I don’t want to care anymore.

Hugh Laurie,you’ll never read this but you disappointed me too, maybe now you really only care about the money and fame or are too tired to realize what is going on in your show.

Oh my,Bioshock 2 is only a few (long) months away from being launched and I can’t wait cause Bioshock was one of my favorite games ever and I’m the type that gets very easily bored so I play lots of games but complete very few and if I complete them it means I loved them (now imagine I completed Bioshock twice) . Now Assassins Creed 2 must also get a clear launch date(also sometime next year) and my game loving side will be happy

gameplay trailer for Bioshock 2(with commentary)

gameplay trailer for Assassin’s Creed 2

theatrical trailer for Assassins Creed 2

I’m here to bring you yet another whiny abstract post ! I think this blog should be called “Ada’s House of Whining” (yeah,inspired by the famous line from back in the 3rd season of House when the show was still smart and not a pathetic soap opera) but to tell you the truth , I don’t give a damn about what you all think and it’s not cause I’m an arrogant bitch,which I am not(it would be oh so good though), but because the beauty of written rants is that they don’t have to disturb anyone since no one is forcing anyone to read ,any written text in this world can be ignored unless it’s on a 30 m large banner or something similar to that.

I just want to be happy , I mean really happy, satisfied, warm on the inside, not alone ,miserable ,unloved and lost but what I want I can never get and I am worried I will lose my mind very soon , I don’t deserve to be this emotionally unhappy when I could have such a good life and a good time but I CANNOT FUCKING HAVE WHAT I FUCKING NEED FOR FUCKS SAKE cause I’m just a silly little piece of worthless shit !

As anyone who gives a damn about this humble,insignificant blogger and actually reads the posts I make knows , I am or at least feel depressed which in fact comes from feeling emotionally unhappy . Yeah, I know and I’ve admitted it before, I have a pretty good life in terms of financial security ,responsibilities (or lack thereof) and possible opportunities in this God forsaken country so I’m not saying I’m unlucky , I’m only saying I’m unlucky when it comes to emotional fulfillment of most types that don’t have anything to do with the forever existing joy of receiving anything for free in any sort of gift,material form. I am probably overreacting but I really got to the conclusion (a sad conclusion to get to when you’re 22 and everything looks ok from the outside) that I will never really be emotionally happy or get what I need.

See,for all my strengths in all sorts of areas, I am emotionally weak, small things affect me greatly even without me noticing it and I’m plagued by insecurities,stupid insecurities, lack of self-esteem and a tendency to be very introspective to the point of obsession . I also over-think, overreact, over-analyze, I’m extremely passionate and I used to be a dreamer although not in a naive way .

Lately I’ve been losing myself, losing control of my emotional state and have discovered that things that seem and probably are small compared to what others have to go through during their childhood, affected me and the way I see the world and myself. I a lost the ability to hope for anything good when it comes to my emotional fulfillment , the only hopes I still have are to have a healthy,long life and somewhat financially secure which is important seeing as most people in the world live below the poverty line but just not sufficient for me and I don’t think it’s something selfish of me because I didn’t steal or take food from anyone’s mouth and I’m not some millionaire. I am one of those people who have a very intense emotional existence, for whom that side is very important and I’ve never felt really fulfilled or even loved apart from maternal love. Now I feel alone, unhappy , unloved ,unimportant, insignificant , pathetic and hopeless . What I want ,what I desperately need in this life and right now I clearly can’t get and I can’t do anything about it ,it’s just how I am and where I am . It is very hard to handle this pain so I let it consume me and it will only get worse but it doesn’t matter because I don’t matter or don’t deserve such happiness or both. I am smart but I feel stupid, I am a normal looking person but I feel disgusting , I could make a good life for myself but I’m wasting everything including my days by existing instead of living .

Now to clarify : NO,no, don’t think of anything very dramatic in my childhood, I wasn’t abused or seen anyone being abused but we weren’t exactly the perfect family in the sense that my dad left home when I was an infant and until the age of 7 he only came to visit once every couple of evenings and spent one day from morning to afternoon with me during the weekend . Then ,at age 7 , he and mom decided to buy a bigger apartment together so I could grow with both parents in the same house but they weren’t acting like husband and wife or anything,weren’t fighting but I slept with mom and dad slept in what was my room during the day , he wasn’t home until in the evening cause he worked so I guess I have some feelings of neglect although I am not conscious of them. He died on the 26th of December 2001 and the worst thing I remained with from that was the slight hypochondria,a terrible fear of illnesses ,diseases . Of course my mom was never a particularly happy woman. Don’t get me wrong, she’s fun, she’s terribly kind and selfless but she is unhappy, she didn’t start over and that’s probably cause she was too busy taking care of me and cause she doesn’t exactly trust people. She’s also very realistic and she likes to help by pointing out every error and flaw so you can fix it.

There, I ranted ,if anyone reads this…..well,you’re very patient and kind, I’m sorry for wasting your time

We are in the middle of a political crisis in Romania. Basically,our President thinks (and apparently can cause that is the beauty of having a Constitution that leaves room for interpretation) he’s the God of everything that moves around here (dictator tendencies much?)especially when the elections are right around the corner and he’s uncertain of victory after 5 years of mandate during which he had everyone’s best interest in mind except for our best interest and especially his (and the party he originated from played with the executive power cause they were lucky enough to win the elections).

So,the President’s party messed with their political allies PSD (political allies who are in fact their biggest enemies but they shook hands over the country one year ago cause neither could form a majority in Parliament and they both wanted the power) which made all their ministers quit from the government and then the newly formed opposition managed to vote against the makeshift government ,one that now had 11 ministers in charge of 22 ministries (yeah,stupid, I know) .
Now,while the government that was “kicked out” is still in charge but with less authority , the President didn’t want to lose the grip on power so close to the elections so he refused to designate a new PM proposed by the new,clear and transparent majority in Parliament even though it was a great proposition and one that brought very different parties ,that usually hate eachother ,together (which never happened before) . Instead,the President designated whoever he saw fit and now this guy (and his newly formed team) has to go present their program in Parliament and ask for approval which he won’t get cause the majority is against him and everyone knows this and it’s why the Constitution says that the President must consult(mediate talks between the parties in fact) with the parties forming the Parliament and ,in case they haven’t already formed a majority, help them get to a majority and then designate as PM a person who the majority proposed ,especially if there’s nothing wrong with that person.

I personally enjoy watching the political circus in Romania, the political scene is full of stupid ,incompetent people who fight with eachother all day long but it is a sad situation and very harmful for our country and future.

The man the majority proposed for PM(in the above photo) is a man I personally like a lot and who proved to be very competent and popular , winning 3 mandates as mayor of Sibiu ,a city he pretty much restored and brought to its former beauty and glory without much help from the state. Johannis,cause that’s his name ,is also very intelligent, very well spoken,polite and has very few opponents . I don’t think he’s without a sin, I would be surprised if he didn’t use his position as mayor to make a small fortune by taking some money from here and there but everyone does that and it’s a proven fact that he invested everything he could in the infrastructure and the needs of his city. Every time he appears on tv ,which he doesn’t really like to do, he proves he knows what he’s talking about,he proves he has what one needs to be a PM and he presents himself in the most elegant,dignified way seen so far in our politics. Also,he’s not a member of any party and is very well seen outside Romania (which is something we really need).
I doubt he or anyone else can really get us out of the crisis in a very short time but I think that on long term,if he stays this way and has support in Parliament, he can do good things.

Oh and I decided who I will vote for in the Presidential elections cause of Johannis, so yeeey. I just hope Antonescu doesn’t go against his word and put Patriciu as PM if he wins cause that would be a major fail

The new TV Guide House spread has great pictures,Jennifer is stunning,Hugh looks very hot in those suits,tv guide always knows how to dress him (oh,how I still miss the hair,he’d look even better without the lack of hair making it more than obvious that he’s got a narrow face)but the article is complete bullshit to me. I think it was a last minute damage control thing ,I smell big fat lies coming from DS’s mouth(and everyone else is lying too of course),they’re just trying to make Jennifer’s departure look less tragic by giving false hope. Oh,I’ll miss her so,the show already isn’t the same and it will never ever ever be the same without her. But hey,now the Huddy and 13 shit can have even more screentime so as long as LE ,KJ and their Huddy worshipers are happy nothing else matters(if you’re a fan of Huddy or LE but are a normal person I apologize ,try to see things in perspective)
At least there’s finally something in the media that has nothing to do with Huddy and 13,something about the original show, I’m grateful for that,it’s probably not going to happen again.

/end of rant

On to the scans (found originally on House_Cameron I guess),they belong to the wonderful people who made the shoot and to the people who scanned it for us. I want to see outtakes!

(click for full size)

I thought long and hard about posting this(or better said,about not posting it) but I decided,after a few days, that I should post about it.
There’s an article in the Daily Mail(not a very reliable,serious source)that *introduced* us to Hugh’s new flashy Porsche(can’t believe I agree with the Daily Mail for once).

So,Hugh,should I assume the humble,adorable,shy,british,guilty you is slowly dying and the new,Hollywood Hugh is taking its place ? That would be sad,stay away from it,it’s not you ! Mid-life crisis much? Should I expect seeing you with a flashy, stupid looking blond sex bomb soon?(or ,God forbid, LE cause it’s almost the same thing,no offense,I might be wrong,I know) Oh well….
Don’t get me wrong,a Porsche is a Porsche and I love cars but once you stayed away from buying such a thing your whole life even though you liked cars and speed……..it’s a little suspicious. Of course,then again,I might be wrong and overreacting .

Hugh,honey,I love you,I really do,you’re awesome and an inspiration to me but if you really want to change your life in a good way and look cool and awesome maybe you should let your hair grow a bit,have a treatment to ensure you won’t lose any more of it, quit smoking and keep exercising,tell your bosses that you need a break,relax,go on vacation,have some *me* time and you’ll feel better !

On the 17th of September I left on a 3 week vacation . The first part of the trip consisted of short visits through Jordan,Syria and Lebanon and the second part was all fun and recreation in Egypt’s,Sharm el Sheikh .
Jordan – a beautiful country,they all were, that surprised me because I didn’t expect it to be quite so modern (I’m talking about the capital,Amman). Amman is slowly becoming a quaint city,beautiful buildings and atmosphere,not too crowded except for a few areas,great infrastructure,wonderful people,lots to see and do. The main 2 attractions for me in Jordan were Petra and the Dead Sea and they didn’t disappoint me at all. Petra was fabulous, one of the most amazing places in the whole world and it consists of so much more than that one facade everyone’s seen on tv or in pictures,it’s made up of various remains of different built structures made by the people who built that famous facade and the canyon you walk through to get to all those remains is stunning,full of color and charm. The Dead Sea is a beautiful body of water and it really is *that” salty, you do float and there are rock formations made of salt or rocks covered in salt on the shore (in the water there’s sand on the bottom). Also been to the place where they say Jesus was baptized in the water of the Jordan river and to another religious place I forgot(LOL) . Another great place was the ancient city of Jerash,lots of roman ruins,very nicely kept.
Syria – it has so many places to see,it has lots of history ,like an open air museum. Damascus is the oldest city in the world that was always occupied ,the old part is stunning,the maze of narrow streets and balconies,all the vendors and shops,many people walking around,the minarets,towers,the beautiful arabic style touches on parts of the buildings like the windows and arches ……all incredibly fascinating. I think the funnies part was buying ice-cream from an ice cream place in the old bazar because there’s no organized line,just a huge crowd of people shoving and pushing (but not with true aggressiveness)their way inside the shop ,to the counter and then pushing their way out of the shop with the ice cream over their heads (managed not to drop it btw ! that was a real victory ). We also visited Bosra where there’s a very big roman amphitheater made of dark stone cause of the volcanic past of the region),Maaloula where there are some old churches and it’s the only place where they still learn and speak Aramaic and last but definitely not least on our syrian experience were Palmyra and Crac de Chevaliers which are both very impressive with Palmyra being a big roman city with lots of well preserved stuff . The not fun stuff was staying in the border for 2 hours when we wanted to cross to Lebanon but at least we heard gunshots (less exciting than it sounds,just some idiots trying to smuggle some things out of the country so their car got shot at). Oh and we had the stupidest guide in the history of guides ,he was so stupid it was hard to be mad at him ,we laughed a lot in fact.
Lebanon – I think I am in love with Beirut . We stayed 3 hours in the custom(3 + 2 in the syrian border = 5 so still not my ultimate 7 hour record)and at one point some nice dude from the custom thought I was an artist (cause there apparently is an artist with the same name in their country) so we amused ourselves . Arrived in Beirut late ,around 22:30 or 23:00 and as we approached it along the coastline,the moon was shining brightly over the sea,the city lights could be seen all around ,it was amazing. Beirut is a wonderful city,full of life and joy just like its people. Everyone knows that Lebanon went through lots of turmoil in the past 30 or so years ,the civil war left Beirut in ruins but it rose from the “ashes” and managed to get where it is today even after the 2006 israeli attacks. Today it looks like a future Monaco to be honest. I’m sure there are poor,ugly areas and all that,saw a couple myself but the heart of the city,the more central parts ,the ones where the upper and middle classes live are pretty darn nice as far as I’m concerned and everywhere you look they are still building new and beautiful stuff . Beirut is for the most part pretty similar to mediteranean cities in Europe so u’ll feel right at home there. The people are fascinating,many are pretty european looking,they’re modern and opened,very fun,they know how to enjoy life and live every free moment and they love their country and city.Only stayed for 2 and a half days but I would go there again anytime and probably will go again in the future.
Egypt – 7th time there,only went to Sharm el Sheikh. It was lovely,the hotel was amazing (Hyatt Regency I’m pimping you ) and the Red Sea as warm and inviting as ever. The downside was that I got a bit sick,either an indigestion or a sunstroke or a bit of both (probably a bit of both) so I couldn’t enjoy the sea and fun for 2 days and I wasn’t in top shape during the rest cause of it. In the Egypt album you can see pics of the pyramids ,Cairo(with the Nile) and the Sinai mountains all taken from the plane).

Other than that………still depressed and it is only going to get worse,House sucks big time,never watching again especially since it leaked that Jennifer Morrison is leaving. Will make a post about Heroes and Supernatural cause I’m all over those and they are loads of fun .

Now for pics click on each of the links to the picasa albums

Jordan

Syria

Lebanon

Sharm el Sheikh

Yes,I WANT THE HAIR BACK !!!!!!!!!!! Hugh honey,did no one tell you that your narrow jaw does not go well with very short hair? No? Ok,I am telling you then ! Also,please get some rest or something .
Oh and never lose that gorgeous smile,it’s like sun on a cloudy day

Found a few more promo stills .
Oh Hugh,please do something about your hair and lose a bit of weight,you’re a sexy beast so don’t lose that !

Even snakes want to wrap themselves around Hugh and his sexy self Yes,apparently those are real snakes and Hugh wanted to know their names but the snake handler said they have no name cause they don’t come when you call them . Now,I would have named them but whatever LOL
I think this snakes on a cane thing is the only good thing about House (along with Hugh of course) so enjoy .